"Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back … Maybe, you have to let go of who you were to become who you will be."
~ Carrie Bradshaw.

Friday, June 28, 2013

"Just Say Yes."

Could one truly know when something is right? How would one truly know such a thing? Are there signs? Firecrackers? Would one being comfortable prove that there aren't any firecrackers in the relationship? Would hesitation prove something isn't right there or you're simply not prepared? Oh, the questions. For the trials of love, how would one truly know that it's right?

I couldn't help but wonder ... Maybe, there aren't any right answers, right times or right women. Maybe you should simply listen to what your heart is telling you. Yes ... Just say yes.

Delaney, for instance. Times could not get any worse for our personal lives, and we had begun searching for those right times within our relationship, in attempts to perfect something. Everything, in our lives, was terribly uncontrollable. I guess a sense of control flickered within us while contending with our relationship together. But those adventures of "control" had disbenefited us, as I felt more powerless while stuff began to shift, and in a bad way with the distance seemingly irreconcilable.

Was there a possible way where stuff could've ended differently? Yes, I'm convinced. Is timing everything? If Delaney & I hadn't partnered up then, and had waited for a more encouraging opportunity later on, could there and would there have been a major difference? We would have attained the time to dedicate ourselves to what had drawn us apart in our lives. And, we'd have been more experienced ... Stronger. Prepared for a commitment which craved equal attention, desperately needed it to survive.

The "woes" still continue for her and myself. I have faced, she has faced, draining uphill battles since splitting. Heavy realizations are the normality, I have them every day. Here's a tip to take, from our relationship : You shouldn't enter deep waters when you are currently a shallow swimmer. Even if you're completely willing to chance it, come up for air and talk shit out. The relationship will drown otherwise. Maybe, Delaney & I were both terribly possessive of particular feelings and that simply couldn't work. We were chained to anchors. Being doomed was our destiny 'cause of that. When you love a gal, find the key to unshackle yourself and your feelings too. Allow small space to feel what you're feeling, and to think about everything, open up but a smidgen. Simply follow, and listen to your heart ... 'Cause it brings you home, always.

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